Gracias,

Everytime someone blows you off, just think, "Okay. She could have been a real psycho."

I was just thinking how people can really turn out to be unpredicatble and scary. Like this guy in New York. He seemed the perfect example of nice and cool. From Misourri Suburbs, moved to they city three years before. Works for IBM. (Came across the most sane and "Normal" people I hung with). And I was thinking.. wow what a nice guy... sweet.. Sorta man I would like to date.

I met him again, he dragged himself to Burning Man with me, (Forced more like, one day I will write about it, I am still too shell shock to do so) would not leave me alone, and turned out rude, insecure, isolating me from my friends and kinda abusive in a real subtle way, was part of the reason I had the most incredibly bad time. I flew half way around the world to attend too.

He seemed one of those ultra cool people. I would be sad if he had blown me off. He seems like a "nice guy" (He often refered to himself as such). He turned out to be the worse person I had any assosiation with for a long time. And it was less than a week! And it really occurred to me tha some of the wildest loudest people you think are bad news aren't, coz you know where they are at, at all times. It's the quiet sweet ones that could really turn nasty because it's all so subtlem and you don't know it until sucked you in!

I don't know why I ranted on like that. I guess I have been working on this BM post (again) and still can't write about it. Things come out in strange ways.

yan

Hey, she's out there, okay? the time and circumstances aren't right, that's all. Don't moan about green fruit - the ripe one will fall into your hands. Stay open to possibility and be detached from outcome - only concentrate on the fun of the chase, on doing that right, enjoying the process of shopping.

It will happen. The odds are firmly in in your favor.

Hi,

I still haven't heard from you how to ping radioland. Did I delete and email accidently thinking it was spam? It happens a lot when I have an unfamiliar email.

Yan

Yes I am a bad host. I will try and get this attened to quickly. I can only beg your forgiveness.